Narcissist

narcissist /ˈnɑːsɪsɪst/: a person who has an excessive interest in or admiration of themselves — Oxford English Dictionary.
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Recently, I was judged to be a “narcissist”, ironically, by people self centred enough to think that they’re entitled to lay claim on my world. Gratefully, they were advised otherwise….. .

The crux of their accusations were that I workout too much for self image on an Instagram feed indicative of a “self absorbed” lifestyle. Upon hearing their elucidations, my counterattack was to stay silent in riposte, in lieu of hurrying, with breakneck speed to the gym to complete a double workout session, followed by capturing a number of pics to assist cinematise my GAINZ post training…. .

The catalyst for this was not, as accused, due to an excessive interest in self-image preening, but instead my response to an attack on some of the strategies I have fostered to help combat the emotional “twists” that life has challenged me with over the past 3yrs. I have had to RE-BUILD my self esteem (still work-in-progress) due to obliterated confidence levels. Exercise & taking pics of my fitness progress has HELPED me TAKE BACK MY LIFE in a manner that’s been expansive beyond what I envisaged possible; something that men can be overly stoic about admitting they need to do post traumatic events…. .

It has been scientifically proven that exercise helps with depression, stress & mental health issues. The endorphins created thru exercise, help to combat stress, improve mood & attract +IVE vibes. Endorphins are a NATURAL CHEMICAL created in our brains that interact with special receptors to reduce one’s “perception of pain”, in turn triggering +IVE feelings to increase the anti-depression aspects of exercise.

Hence, working out, isn’t just about building muscle for self image & improving cardiovascular, it’s also about calming my mind, to help move away from overthinking situations that can feel desperate at times. So, to those who’ve judged me as being “narcissistic”, possibly you’re just too “simple” to see that what I’m doing is building “SELF CARE” & being “KIND” to myself enough to know that I deserve it, we all do! Now, lemme’ take a selfie…🤣